Monday, January 5, 2009

Thank you, and the sirens work

For the past 10 days, the first thing I do when I wake up in the morning is check my e-mail and the news sites. Today, since I left for work at 7:15, and I'm not a quick riser, I only had time to check my e-mail before heading for the bus. Wow. Thank you so much for the outpouring of support you all sent me. Due to the fact that I have several loads of laundry to do (it's hard to get things done with the kids around), I am not able to answer each of them individually, but they are invaluable to me. Please keep them coming!
When I came home from work, the older kids were still at their tiyul and Petachya was at his twice-weekly after-school program, so I had some time to check my e-mail again and the news sites. It's becoming somewhat of an obsession, but I'm trying not to do it when the kids are around. From the e-mails posted to the YB yahoo group, I learned that the sirens went off today at around 10am - for real. I found myself surprisingly calm. Contrary to previous days, I did not feel my usual overwhelming compulsion to check every new site to find out where it landed. Apparently, the sirens were heard very softly in my area of the yishuv, but that was fixed immediately, as is evidenced by the 5 loudspeakers newly perched atop the Beit Knesset Merkazi (the central synagogue), about half a block from my house. I found out afterward that the rocket had landed in Yavna (thank God without injuries), a community between Gedera and Ashdod, the same distance that we are from the Gaza Strip. However, I am not scared anymore. Maybe it was your e-mails. Maybe Ruby's right and the writing really is cathartic. Maybe my emunah/bitachon gene has kicked in. Whatever it is, I know that whatever happens is God's will. I know what to do if I need to, and the rest is up to Him. To paraphrase the blessing my father gave us every night before we went to sleep as my brother and sister and I were small (and he probably still gives us by proxy):
May God watch over us, and bless us, and keep us healthy and happy always.
Today is my sister-in-law's due date. We are anxiously waiting for happy news from the USA. My children are really excited about having a new niece or nephew - their first from my side. May the coming days bring us and all of klal Yisrael besorot tovot!

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